Thursday, April 13, 2006

You Know Why?

Chicken Thigh.

I am more aware of my pump site today than I have been in the entire time I've worn a pump. The connector sits on my thigh, a white island in the sea of peachy skin that is my thigh. It doesn't hurt -- in fact, there's no discomfort whatsoever -- but it's more *there* than is usual.

I have always been a stomach and butt girl when it's come to my diabetes. For years, I insisted on giving my shots in those two areas -- and those two areas alone. My mother begged, pleaded, and bribed me into trying my arms and legs and hips, but when I did use them, it was infrequently and always very trying. I would work myself into a frenzy worrying about how much it might hurt, how the bruises might look, how much more the insulin might sting. So, naturally, when I got my pump, I returned to the areas that were most comfortable and over the past several years my poor stomach and butt have become a field of red dots that never seem to go away.

Then Julia posted this about her daughter and the need to try a new site. I guess it is both an advantage and a disadvantage to have one's own trials with diabetes, and one's own fears and worries about trying new things around the disease, posted on the internet. An advantage because you must realize that you're not alone when you read about your own misgivings in someone else's words. A disadvantage, because, if you're anything like me, you feel more compelled to take action when someone points out that the problem that you've been fooling yourself into thinking is really no problem at all is an issue that you must address.

Last night, I put my very first pump site into my thigh. I will admit that I worked myself into the usual frenzy, worrying about hitting something and hurting myself and stinging insulin -- and worrying about all the pump issues accompanying this new site -- Am I going to pull it out? Will this pose a problem getting dressed? Am I going to drop my pump in the toilet when I try to go to the bathroom? What about the gym?

My mind raced as I pressed the needle against my thigh and took a good deep breath. I was shocked at the lack of discomfort -- at the absence of pain as I pushed the needle through and secured the connector to my skin. And there was no extra insulin sting when I filled the cannula and when I gave my first bolus through the site. I slept through the night without pulling the site free and have successfully maneuvered the bathroom process without any floating pump issues.

Goofy as this probably sounds, I felt more proud of myself (related to my diabetes) today than I have in quite a long time. Once again, I muscled through anxiety and fear and I came out ahead of this disease.

I surprised myself... You know why?

Chicken Thigh.

What have you read?

A Book Meme from the OC. My appetite for books is actually showing through on this one...

Instructions: Bold the ones you've read. Italicize the ones you've been wanting/might like to read. ??Place question marks by any titles/authors you've never heard of?? Plus I'm adding this, as Turtlebella noted that the choice of books by each author is a mite idiosyncratic: put an asterisk if you've read something else by the same author.

Allcott, Louisa May Little Women
Allende, Isabel The House of Spirits
Angelou, Maya I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings
Atwood, Margaret Cat's Eye

Austen, Jane Emma*
Bambara, Toni Cade Salt Eaters?
Barnes, Djuna Nightwoodde?
Beauvoir, Simone The Second Sex
Blume, Judy Are You There God? It's Me Margaret
Burnett, Frances The Secret Garden
Bronte, Charlotte Jane Eyre
Bronte, Emily Wuthering Heights
Buck, Pearl S. The Good Earth
Byatt, A.S. Possession
Cather, Willa My Antonia*
Chopin, Kate The Awakening
Christie, Agatha Murder on the Orient Express
Cisneros, Sandra The House on Mango Street?
Clinton, Hillary Rodham Living History
Cooper, Anna Julia A Voice From the South
Danticat, Edwidge Breath, Eyes, Memory?
Davis, Angela Women, Culture, and Politics
Desai, Anita Clear Light of Day?
Dickinson, Emily Collected Poems
Duncan, Lois I Know What You Did Last Summer
DuMaurier, Daphne Rebecca
Eliot, George Middlemarch
Emecheta, Buchi Second Class Citizen?
Erdrich, Louise Tracks
Esquivel, Laura Like Water for Chocolate
Flagg, Fannie Fried Green Tomatoes at the Whistle Stop Cafe
Friedan, Betty The Feminine Mystique
Frank, Anne Diary of a Young Girl
Gilman, Charlotte Perkins The Yellow Wallpaper
Gordimer, Nadine July's People?
Grafton, Sue S is for Silence
Hamilton, Edith Mythology?
Highsmith, Patricia The Talented Mr. Ripley
Hooks, Bell Bone Black
Hurston, Zora Neale Tracks on the Road
Jacobs, Harriet Incidents in the Life of a Slave Girl
Jackson, Helen Hunt Ramona
Jackson, Shirley The Haunting of Hill House
Jong, Erica Fear of Flying*
Keene, Carolyn The Nancy Drew Mysteries
Kidd, Sue Monk The Secret Life of Bees
Kincaid, Jamaica Lucy?
Kingsolver, Barbara The Poisonwood Bible
Kingston, Maxine Hong The Woman Warrior
Larsen, Nella Passing
L'Engle, Madeleine A Wrinkle in Time
Le Guin, Ursula K. The Left Hand of Darkness?
Lee, Harper To Kill a Mockingbird
Lessing, Doris The Golden Notebook
Lively, Penelope Moon Tiger?
Lorde, Audre The Cancer Journals
Martin, Ann M. The Babysitters Club Series
McCullers, Carson The Member of the Wedding?
McMillan, Terry Disappearing Acts
Markandaya, Kamala Nectar in a Sieve?
Marshall, Paule Brown Girl, Brownstones
Mitchell, Margaret Gone with the Wind
Montgomery, Lucy Maudâ Anne of Green Gables
Morgan, Joan When Chickenheads Come Home to Roost?
Morrison, Toni Song of Solomon*
Murasaki, Lady Shikibu The Tale of Genji?
Munro, Alice Lives of Girls and Women
Murdoch, Iris Severed Head
Naylor, Gloria Mama Day
Niffenegger, Audrey The Time Traveller's Wife
Oates, Joyce Carol We Were the Mulvaneys*
O'Connor, Flannery A Good Man is Hard to Find
Piercy, Marge Woman on the Edge of Time?
Picoult, Jodi My Sister's Keeper
Plath, Sylvia The Bell Jar
Porter, Katharine Anne Ship of Fools
Proulx, E. Annie The Shipping News
Rand, Ayn The Fountainhead
Ray, Rachel 365: No Repeats?
Rhys, Jean Wide Sargasso Sea
Robinson, Marilynne Housekeeping?
Rocha, Sharon For Laci
Sebold, Alice The Lovely Bones
Shelley, Mary Frankenstein
Smith, Betty A Tree Grows in Brooklyn
Smith, Zadie White Teeth
Spark, Muriel The Prime of Miss Jean Brodie
Spyri, Johanna Heidi?
Strout, Elizabeth Amy and Isabelle
Steel, Danielle The House
Tan, Amy The Joy Luck Club
Tannen, Deborah You're Wearing That?
Ulrich, Laurel A Midwife's Tale
Urquhart, Jane Away
Walker, Alice The Temple of My Familiar
Welty, Eudora One Writer's Beginnings
Wharton, Edith Age of Innocence
Wilder, Laura Ingalls Little House in the Big Woods
Wollstonecraft, Mary A Vindication of the Rights of Women
Woolf, Virginia A Room of One's Own*

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

More on S1955

Clearly, our phone calls and emails to our Senators has made some difference in the fight against this dangerous legislation.

You know how I know?

Because Senate leaders have pushed the vote on this bill back until after the Easter recess, because they don't believe they have the votes they need to pass S. 1955. Most advocacy based organiztions fighting against the bill (and for it) believe the vote will come early during the week beginning May 1st.

So, now's the time to continue the fight.

If you have not contacted your Senators, please do so now...

Information here.

Talking points here.

If you visit in person or want more information to send/leave with your Senators you can find that here.

Finally, if you've already contacted your Senators, please take a moment to forward this information to as many folks as you can and ask them to do the same.